Another £250 lost

I have a confession about 2 weeks ago i managed to get another £250.00 together and managed to lose it in a couple of days, i did't want to post it just because of it showing how bad i am at this, it isn't really bad it's beyond that. The worst part even though i have earned the money i feel awful thinking about what i could have treated my girlfriend to with the money, but i keep telling myself if i can make this work or learn how to trade then i will be treating the girlfriend later on in life, by treating her or us i just mean days out or more than a 4 day holiday each year, i am not talking about fast cars and big houses, that just isn't us. My main goal was to just make this trading work so we have a steady trickle of income when we retire, but i can't see any light at all in that respect. Sometimes i want to quit but at the same time i don't want to give up all i am trying to do is make money from money and not have to work for it like i have done for the past 34 years.

What went wrong this time? Well as usual the minute i traded one direction it went in the other i think it went to minus £60 straight away, i decided to cut my loses and trade in opposite direction and guess what you guessed it, straight away i start losing again, it seems funny i could watch the direction of shares for a few hour but the minute i buy shares it doesn't just crawl it shoots in the opposite direction nearly every time.

I am still convinced i need two to three grand to be in this game and just by shares for 50p or a pound at a low spread, i just need to find a way of getting 2/3 grand, yes i could borrow it but i really don't want to be paying a loan off if it all goes wrong.

My other worry is the EU referendum is in about a month and there is a chance the UK could pull out of the EU, if this is the case then stocks and shares could go mental, but which way?? There is one sure thing which ever way the shares go you can bet i would have traded in the opposite direction.